Happy Someday

Alright, I'm listening to a CD I just bought, Plain White T's first CD, Stop. It is really good. Lyrically it fits my mood. One song on their reminds me of my uncle... It's a good album, I'd recommend that you buy it lol. I just posted a poem on my MySpace, Its a bunch of small poems that I've written put into a big one. I think it came out well, I'll include it below. I can't be online too much longer, because my mom has to use it quickly, but I'll be back on later. I feel bad right now... Something is upsetting my best friend, and theres nothing I can do. I don't like to see her upset. I hope she'll be okay, I told her I'm here for her, thats all I can really do for her I guess, although I wish I could do more, and make her feel better...
So normally I have a picture of a band or artist and then I post a song lyric by them benieth it, well I can't do that today, I need to post this whole song. My first time hearing it today, it's really how I feel... lol. Here's my poem first...

Suicide of the Heart
"I know how you felt,
Cause I'm fighting that fight.
Just keep me from doing
What you did that night.
Something is wrong,
Something I can't fix.
My worlds turned grey
And now I feel sick.
My mind plays tricks with my head,
As I lay here alone in my bed.
It does nothing more than tear me apart
It's nothing more than suicide of the heart.
Watch me go a little more insane
Every time you call my name.
But that doesn't matter to me
You're the only girl I see.
You are beautiful but
I never wanted to love you.
Take me into your arms tonight
And let me wake beside you.
Don't rob yourself of happiness.
Don't rob yourself to see,
The truth about yourself,
Tell me you love me."


"What if nobody likes me
What if I don't succeed
What if I give it all I've got
And I still don't got what they need
What if I don't get anywhere at all
Will I consider myself a failure
Will I be that small
What if she doesn't like me
What if I'm not her type
What if all the girls that ever like me
Are not the kind of girls that I like
What if I meet the right one and screw it up
Will I consider myself a failure
Will I give up
I'm gonna keep trying
Getting denied just makes me want it more
I'll keep trying
And each time push harder than before
I can't live my life
Always worried about what if
'Cause what if I die tomorrow
Then I never even lived
What if they don't like me
What if they think I'm a joke
What if they act nice to my face
But they hate me and I don't even know
What if they end up
Stabbing me in the back
Will I consider myself a failure
Or will I fight back
I'm gonna keep trying
And each time push harder than before
I can't live my life
Always worried about what if
'Cause what if I die tomorrow
Then I never even lived "