Rearviewmirror

I don't know how to feel right now. Today was different then the past week. I got to OCC later than I wanted to, but I didn't miss my class. Before that though I was home putting songs on my Nana's and her boyfriend's iPods. Then I went over and showed them how to use it and stuff like that. When I was showing my Nana's hers, The Greatest Love Of All by Whitney Houston came on and she had me get up and start dancing with her, and she was singing along with it and she seemed happy. Then all of a sudden she started to cry, and she could hardly get the words out, but she still kept singing... I didn't know what to do. Then she stopped dancing and sang a line in the song that said "Learning to love youself, it is the greatest love of all" and then she looked at me and said, "Don't you ever forget that Patrik, and she walked out of the room in tears... I didn't know how to feel or what to say. Then I heard her in the bathroom say "I wish you could have seen that Rob." That's my uncle's name. So once I heard that, I knew thats why she was crying. Then on our way to OCC we stopped by the cemetery that my grandfather, her husband, was buried. So her and I went up to the mosileum and 'paid our respects' and then she said "Take care of Rob for me, he's up there with you, you're little boy is home." And I had to hold myself back from crying... It was hard. And after that I got to OCC and went to my class and did all that fun stuff. And I when I got home I was suppose to go over my Nana's again and watch Pineapple Express with them, hoping that it would make her laugh and stuff, you know? So we start watching it and right around the part where they're smoking the cross joint she leaves the room crying, and says how she couldn't watch it because its about drugs, and that drugs ruined the family and she couldn't take it, which I completely understood/understand, but I still felt so bad because before I kept going on how it was my favorite movie and everything and I just feel bad that it upset her. So I'm home now. I'm okay now I guess. I just need to vent. Besides today I've been feeling great, and I've been like hanging out with friends a lot and stuff. Today is like one of those day's where you have to reflect on your life, and then maybe watch something sad and cry... Thats what I wanna do, I just wanna cry, let it out, and move on to tomorrow. Sometimes it seems all you need is the right person to say the right thing, and that will make it all better... I wish I had that...

"I want you in my rearviewmirror"