I was watching Scrubs about a week ago and Elliot said to J.D. "You know, if you stop talking about all of your problems, then maybe they won't effect you as much." And I thought to myself, hmmmm lol. So for the past week I haven't talk about anything in my personal life to anyone. That's also why I haven't blogged for a short while. But right now I have nothing better to do, so I thought I'd still write something.
All of my teachers say that by now, if I'm not enjoying what were doing, that this isn't the field for us. Well, now I don't know what to do. I don't mind video editing, I don't mind digital audio editing, I don't mind television production, and I don't mind running the camera's in the studio but I can not stand my Video Field Production class. Operating that camera. I hate it. I dread it. I don't know what I want to do with my life.
I don't wake up and go to OCC everyday to go to my classes and learn, I wake up to go and hang out with friends.
I have been trying to stay positive about everything and so far I have been. I haven't been letting little things get to me, which has brought stress down, but that one class is driving me insane. The other day during the "lunch time" at OCC I sat alone and by the time I left there, I had realized that I was in a large group. I didn't ask for anyone to come up to me, but a large sum did. It made me feel like people actually enjoy my company. Apparently I'm hilarious lol.
I was listening to Brand New, but I just changed it to Dave because Dave always makes me happy haha. Actually Scrubs always makes me happy. I think I'm going to put on Scrubs for now. I have to "get up" at 5:30, but it's 4:45 right now and I've been up since 3:30 so... Haha. Today is going to kill me, but I'm staying positive.
All of my teachers say that by now, if I'm not enjoying what were doing, that this isn't the field for us. Well, now I don't know what to do. I don't mind video editing, I don't mind digital audio editing, I don't mind television production, and I don't mind running the camera's in the studio but I can not stand my Video Field Production class. Operating that camera. I hate it. I dread it. I don't know what I want to do with my life.
I don't wake up and go to OCC everyday to go to my classes and learn, I wake up to go and hang out with friends.
I have been trying to stay positive about everything and so far I have been. I haven't been letting little things get to me, which has brought stress down, but that one class is driving me insane. The other day during the "lunch time" at OCC I sat alone and by the time I left there, I had realized that I was in a large group. I didn't ask for anyone to come up to me, but a large sum did. It made me feel like people actually enjoy my company. Apparently I'm hilarious lol.
I was listening to Brand New, but I just changed it to Dave because Dave always makes me happy haha. Actually Scrubs always makes me happy. I think I'm going to put on Scrubs for now. I have to "get up" at 5:30, but it's 4:45 right now and I've been up since 3:30 so... Haha. Today is going to kill me, but I'm staying positive.
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