One More Night

I just got home a few minutes after 8. On our way to drop me off, Zach and I were blasting Limousine by Brand New. I've heard it before, and yes its a sad song, but tonight I felt it. You know you hear a song 1,000 times, but it just takes that one thought, that one time, to make you feel it. There's a line in the song "One more night, I'll be your mother" or something like that, it made me think of my Nana... How she must have felt when she heard the news... Her baby boy was gone. That alone was such a powerful line that I could have cried right then and there, but then the song went on, and so did my mind. The song builds with the lines "Well I love you so much, but do me a favor baby, don't reply, cause I can dish it out but I can't take it" and each time he adds a number to the beginning and keeps counting. The music gets louder, and his voice shows more and more emotion. As it went on, I envisioned it all... My uncle jumping out of the car, my mom telling him to get in the car and to come over our house, but no, he wanted to go home, he had something on his mind. He kept saying "Tricia, I want you to know I love you" and my moms responded "I love you too Rob, get in the car!" He wouldn't. They approached the house, and my mom said "Rob, don't hurt Tammy or the kids or yourself." And he said "Well you better get the kids out of there then." My mom called the police, my uncle was in the house. The police came. The song builds more and more. My uncle runs inside, his wife yells "Get the fuck out!" He charges downstairs. Slams the door. Song builds and builds. The police come. My uncles in the back yard. He hangs up the rope. He takes his last breath. Song builds and builds. The police go out back and more police come. My mom worries. They finally come out front. Song builds and builds. They tell my mom my uncle hung himself. My mom screams in pain. I see this. I see this all. She runs in the streets. In tears. Her baby brother is gone. She screams. Song builds. Next she has to tell her mother that he is dead. My Nana hears the news and falls to the ground in tears. Her baby boy taken from her... The song builds. I see this all in my head. I hold back from crying. The song slows down, and my heart stops racing. Such a powerful song. I miss my uncle so much. This July it'll be one year...
It was refreshing to hear that song though. It helped me get some emotions out that have been buried inside me for a while. Other than that today was a good day. Zach's got me addicted to Stars now haha. They're wicked good!

"He starts with her back, because that's what he sees
When she's breaking his heart, she still fucks like a tease
Release to the sky, look him straight in the eye
And tell him, right now, that you wish he would die
You'll never touch him again, so get what you can
Leaving him empty, just because he's a man
So good when it ends, they'll never be friends
One more night, that's all they can spend"