I haven't talked to a single person today. Friend wise I mean. See, I'm trying not to text people as much, so today I didn't want to text anyone, I wanted them to text me, and then of course I'd respond, but no body did. And I actually got desperate towards the end of the night here, and I texted a few. No response. Can't you see I'm loved? See I rely on people too much, and people always disappoint me. To quote Dave Matthews in Don't Drink The Water, "I don't need anyone but me." See, even sometimes I disappoint myself. But whatever, it's like, I always seem to get down or something when I'm all alone. Without sounding stupid or anything, I like to receive random texts from my friends. It shows that they think about me, or something, idk. Ughh... seriously, idk why I let this bother me. But I do. And it annoys me. I'm truely just venting. And while I'm venting, it reminds me how I'm always there for any of my friends, and if they need to vent, I'm there. I let them vent, I don't judge, I listen. But then with alot of them, it seems like when I need to vent, they're not there, or they judge, when all I need is for someone to listen. Nobody's perfect.
I had a dream last night, I won't get into it, but basically a girl was ran over by a car in it, on purpose... I don't see any meaning behind this dream. Whatever hahaha. I'm listening to Nirvana right now, I've been listening to them the past couple of days. Thats all I've been listening to today though. I have done nothing today except blow money at Soundgarden on this Nirvana box set, and then come home and listen to it... all day. Well about 4 hours ago I tried to play my guitar, then realized I can't play, so I went and got my dad's bass, and then I laid out this sick beat. I seem to be pretty good at bass, lol, I just can't grasp guitar.
Honestly, I want to like, become famous. For something. Something related to video or music. Both are passions of mine. I'm constantly listening to music. And I'm constantly laughing or making people laugh, alot of my friends/family tell me I should be a comedian... but I don't know about that. I mean, I know I'm pretty entertaining at times, but I don't think I could get a crowd going hahaha. Well... when I was in a play once, I did lol. Whatever, hahaha.
My brothers been in a George Calrin kick these past few days, so when I hang out with him, he plays it, and I have that skit or whatever you call it that he did about the 7 Dirty Words. The part where he says that "tits" doesn't sound like a bad word, and how it sounds like a nick name, and hes like "Tits, meet Toots, Toots, this is Tits" Hahaha, idk, hopefully you've heard it, otherwise I just seem... weird haha.
Well anyways I'm going to go to bed now while listening to Nirvana on my iPod, I have church in the morning. Sunday. Yippi... I just wanna sleep in hahaha. Shit, that reminds me, I gotta do that damn student loan thing! I'm so lazy right now... lol.
“Wanting to be someone else is a waste of the person you are.”
I had a dream last night, I won't get into it, but basically a girl was ran over by a car in it, on purpose... I don't see any meaning behind this dream. Whatever hahaha. I'm listening to Nirvana right now, I've been listening to them the past couple of days. Thats all I've been listening to today though. I have done nothing today except blow money at Soundgarden on this Nirvana box set, and then come home and listen to it... all day. Well about 4 hours ago I tried to play my guitar, then realized I can't play, so I went and got my dad's bass, and then I laid out this sick beat. I seem to be pretty good at bass, lol, I just can't grasp guitar.
Honestly, I want to like, become famous. For something. Something related to video or music. Both are passions of mine. I'm constantly listening to music. And I'm constantly laughing or making people laugh, alot of my friends/family tell me I should be a comedian... but I don't know about that. I mean, I know I'm pretty entertaining at times, but I don't think I could get a crowd going hahaha. Well... when I was in a play once, I did lol. Whatever, hahaha.
My brothers been in a George Calrin kick these past few days, so when I hang out with him, he plays it, and I have that skit or whatever you call it that he did about the 7 Dirty Words. The part where he says that "tits" doesn't sound like a bad word, and how it sounds like a nick name, and hes like "Tits, meet Toots, Toots, this is Tits" Hahaha, idk, hopefully you've heard it, otherwise I just seem... weird haha.
Well anyways I'm going to go to bed now while listening to Nirvana on my iPod, I have church in the morning. Sunday. Yippi... I just wanna sleep in hahaha. Shit, that reminds me, I gotta do that damn student loan thing! I'm so lazy right now... lol.
“Wanting to be someone else is a waste of the person you are.”
With the whole texting thing, I do that all the time. Well, not even relying on people...I just hate texting. I hate AIM. I hate Myspace. If I didn't use any of them, I wouldn't have any friends at all. I broke my phone over the summer, and I was without one for almost three weeks. It was the most free I've ever felt. I didn't feel tied down, or obligated to text people.
ReplyDeleteI never had a cell until graduation haha so up until that point I always felt left out, since I couldn't text while everyone else was. But then I got my phone, and now I hate it haha so I know what you mean lol.
ReplyDeleteYou'll notice I overuse "lol" and "haha" alot, I try to stay happy lol.