I am so fucking pissed right now. I can't believe myself. I really can't. I mean, I always blame other people, but you know what, it's gotta be me, there my be something wrong with me. Because I always make myself available, does that make me pathetic? I try to be a good friend, and I am a good friend, but in the end, I think I just get shit on, by most of my friends. I don't think they do it intentionally, at least I hope not, haha, but seriously, I'm a good friend to all of my friends. What is it about me? Can someone please explain. Whatever, I don't even want to bother. I'm fine, I'm not the problem. I dwell. So even right now I'm dwelling on stuff that probably doesn't meant anything. That's a problem. I should probably just stop talking. I'm going to move on with the rest of my day now.
I don't know what I'm doing today. I was hoping to hang out with Amie today, but she needs to get her car fixed, so were probably not going to get to hang out today. I might just chill home today then. Do nothing, ya know? I need to just relax and disconnect myself from the world. I bet I won't do that, but hey, we'll find out later today.
Ohh I had a dream, different than others... I was running in a hall, like the Shining, and there was a girl at the end of the hall, whom to which I was running to, then all of a sudden it seems like as I run closer, she just gets further and further away, and then I finally start to get close, then a guy walks out of a room, and then we fight. I actually win, but then as I'm running towards this girl, he shouts and I look back, and he shoots me, then he shoots himself. I don't die, I just fall to the ground, something else happened here but I don't remember it, but then in the end I crawled into a hotel room, and turned on the TV, and then it was some dancing channel or whatever and 3OH!3 started playing and then I woke up, and my cell phone was ringing. My ringtone is 3OH!3... Hahaha so it was a weird dream. It was scary, like I was upset during it, until I got shot lol.
"I was just wondering if you'd come along
To hold up my head when my head won't hold on
I'll do the same if the same's what you want
If not I'll go
I will go alone"
I don't know what I'm doing today. I was hoping to hang out with Amie today, but she needs to get her car fixed, so were probably not going to get to hang out today. I might just chill home today then. Do nothing, ya know? I need to just relax and disconnect myself from the world. I bet I won't do that, but hey, we'll find out later today.
Ohh I had a dream, different than others... I was running in a hall, like the Shining, and there was a girl at the end of the hall, whom to which I was running to, then all of a sudden it seems like as I run closer, she just gets further and further away, and then I finally start to get close, then a guy walks out of a room, and then we fight. I actually win, but then as I'm running towards this girl, he shouts and I look back, and he shoots me, then he shoots himself. I don't die, I just fall to the ground, something else happened here but I don't remember it, but then in the end I crawled into a hotel room, and turned on the TV, and then it was some dancing channel or whatever and 3OH!3 started playing and then I woke up, and my cell phone was ringing. My ringtone is 3OH!3... Hahaha so it was a weird dream. It was scary, like I was upset during it, until I got shot lol.
"I was just wondering if you'd come along
To hold up my head when my head won't hold on
I'll do the same if the same's what you want
If not I'll go
I will go alone"
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