My Triple S

I'm much different than other people, and I like that. Fuck, I love that. And honestly that's why I think my friends love me. I'm not different in a really fucking weird way, but in a funny way I guess? Haha I don't know what I'm saying. Fuck what I've said, I don't feel like deleting it. I want to try to write poems, openly. Like, just one shot, there it is typa thing. Here I go!

"Crush me up and crush me down

I can't see when you're not around

I hear you call and my heart stops

I see your face and I drop

To my knees, please baby please

I love you."

Haha okay, that's one. Short, stupid, silly. TRIPLE S.

"I could always make you laugh out loud

But no body's laughing now

I guess that's what happens with time

I guess that's what happened to mine

My first love gone, she's dead on the floor

I put her there, her heart beats no more

I smile in a way that is happy but sick

She did this to herself"

Okay, that one sucks. I guess I'm shitty when I don't have any feeling in it. Fuckkk.

Alrighty well I just wanted to say I'm still alive, for those who care. I know who you are :) WEIRD! I had a dream last night that I got a raise. I picked up my check today.... I got a raise. I hear rumor's of an OCC BBQ. Like, our group. My group of friends. I wonder what would happen if I didn't show up haha. Would I be missed? Would people notice? Like, how much of an impact am I on people. These are things I wonder in my head. This is why I want to be at my own funeral =P Hahaha.